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I haven't posted since October.  Since then, a lot of things have happened, and a lot of nothing has happened.  A whole lot of DEPRESSING.

For one, I did not pass my exam.  Again.  And because of that, I lost my job.  I have been on unemployment since November.  This also means that I currently have no health insurance.  On the upside, I have been applying for jobs, and I keep getting phone interviews.  Which means I look really awesome on paper.  But I haven't gotten any call backs, or job offers, which apparently means that I suck at phone interviews.

So, that's probably the biggest issue.  But Kitten and I broke up in October as well.  It was - still seems - very surreal to me.  Someone who I was envisioning to be in my life for years faded away with so little resistance.  We haven't spoken in almost a month.  I haven't seen her since November.  This person who was supposed to be such a huge support in my life just crumbled away as the other parts of my life became difficult.

So, right now, my life is a lot of sleep, a lot of applying for jobs, and a lot of being alone at home.  I'm cranky pretty much all the time, and not infrequently do I have the urge to stab something.  Alpha's job is going very well, but he's been incredibly busy.  He's working an average of 60 hours a week, doing overtime to cover our bills.  This means I'm alone in the evenings, too.  And he's usually exhausted, so all the housekeeping things have to be done on the weekends, so our social life has dwindled.

We seem to be universally known as the couple that goes to bed early.  Everyone seems to agree that we're fun and interesting, but we always seem to miss the action.  (Why the hell does nothing exciting happen before midnight at these parties, eh?  Is there a rule that says we can't have any serious play before 10pm?)  As it is, we probably turn down 50% of the social events we're invited to.

And perhaps because of all the above, I am beginning to feel neglected.  In more than one way.

I've made some interesting new friends recently, but damnit, they're all successful semi-professional people that actually have JOBS.  I've become THAT friend.